I'm having one of my worst nights for sure.

Tell me how to survive tonight without screaming to my pillows and crying myself to sleep.

I really hate waking up with those swollen eyes.

But i hate surviving the night ALONE more.

Just give me a shoulder to cry on and

give me the drug to erase all my memories.

i feel so pathetic being me.

i hate everything about me.

nothing seems to be going my way.

even my only pillar of strength is weakening.

i seem to be standing alone now.

i feel like i'm alone at some jungle with ten hungry lions in front of me, and i am to fight them barehanded if not i would end up being their meal.

yes. i'm feeling that helpless.

i don't know how else i can survive,

how else i can tolerate.

and most importantly, what could i actually do to make you understand.

i just want your attention and understanding towards me.

i just want you to stand by me.

i just want you to care more about me.

i just want you to be there for me when i cry.

is it that hard to ask for ?

i am really just simply very sick of all these nonsense.

i just want to be alone somewhere.

fuck my life.